Berlin, December 27, 1995

He stayed over at Jordan's watching TV. Short breakfast with Diana and her daughter. Running to rehearsal at 12.00. I work at the theater until 7.30 and am training for five hours. I feel pretty strong slowly and secure in my role although I still have some doubts. It is difficult to think of something else at the moment. She is getting the overhand. I am moving like her am acting like her or at least think in all different directions how she would react. I try to hate her less and less. I try to be her for at least a couple of hours a day. I am acting it out. Collect details because this person is complete up to the underwear that she is wearing. She is an art piece. I hope I don't loose her before the end of the show.